firewalled..??

dang.. it's kinda hard to blog in here.. the connection was so slow that i have to try over n over again.. anyway, back to the topic..
in this office, the IT administrator has blocked all instant messaging services due to students abusing lab usage.. but, they have automatically blocked the staff's connection to instant messaging.. they said they have VPN on each floors in this building to make sure that no mix up between students network and staffs network.. but logically, if they block any access to the students network, the staff network wouldnt be affected.. but now, i cant get thru any instant messaging.. hmm.. and most of the staff who uses IM especially Yahoo Messenger has complaint to me and i would just said that it was not my fault.. and i promised a solution for them.. and here it is..
firstly, download HTTP-Tunnel.. no need for me to tell u guys where to find the software.. there's a lot of search engine out there.. or u can just use the search google option on top and bottom of my blog page.. :P u will give me some income though.. heh.. after u've downloaded the software, install that software by doing the typical next-and-next-i agree- next scheme..
after the installation, run the software.. no need to configure anything.. just set it at 'no proxy, only a firewall'.. after that, run YM.. before u click on connect, on the username / password page, click on 'messenger' option.. and click connection preference..
click on 'use proxies'.. and tick the 'Enable SOCKS Proxy'.. on the server name, type '127.0.01'.. most of u should know that it was supposed to be '127.0.0.1' for a loop IP or localhost IP.. but dont know why, just type '127.0.01' instead of '127.0.0.1'.. it was an alias for '127.0.0.1' as yahoo has block the localhost IP but they didnt (or forgets to) block the alias.. the server port should be set to '1080'.. and set the proxy to version 5.. click on 'apply' and of course 'ok'..
now, try to login to ym.. voila.. it works for me.. =P
p/s : there would be a bit of confusions if u're using this methods.. your ym will be a little 'pening'.. heh.. and one more thing.. i hope this information will not get leak to the students here in this university as it will bring problems for me.. just wanna share it with friends..

man and woman..

i've just watched 'the break-up' featuring Jennifer Aniston and Vince Vaughn with my wife.. it's a nice movie due to not a typical fantasy relationship and more to realistic about relationship.. what i like about the movie was it reflects the life of a typical relationship.. what the man expects from the woman, and vice versa.. hmm..
in the movie, a little spoiler here, the end was not a typical 'and they live happily ever after'.. but, in the process of trying to make each other happy, or miserable, they tried so hard to express themselves of what they truly feel of each other.. the woman, tried so hard to make sure everything she had done for the man would be appreciated and the man, as usual, trying not to be losing his ego in life and trying to make sure their relationship and life together would be perfect..
hmm.. for me, the woman should not feel that way as u should know that every man really appreciate anything that u do.. we, men, dont express our gratitude in a physical way but truly, we respect u womens.. anything u have done for us are truly appreciated.. me myself tried so hard to make sure anything that my wife has done for would be appreciated.. i tried to say thanks eventhough that is a responsibility of a wife or a partner.. i know for it feels to be not appreciated.. been there.. everytime.. it feels like an arrow went straight thru your heart everytime your work or your contribution were mistakenly praised.. "hey, i did that.. not them.." "hey, i did something, say thank you.." no, not that i'm the type who would want to be praise each time i done something.. but please, say some gratitude.. and i tried so hard to make sure it doesn't happened to anyone that done something for me..
and about that man from the movie, he should not do something like "hey, i bring money for the family to eat, to live, so i dont have to do anything else.." huh.. it was a bit too much for an ego.. he should be working with the partner inside their family to make sure the smiles in the relationship was not fake..
actually, it happens in all families and relationship.. the man with his ego, the woman with her pride.. like i said before, try to bend for the sake of the relationship.. if your partner demands something, try to listen.. maybe he/she wouldn't say it out loud, but please, be aware.. open up your eyes and ears.. in the woman case, have you ever say thank you to your partner or husband for anything he had done for u.. u demands appreciation but did u gave them some..?? and the man.. how would u feel if the table turns.. the woman brings money in the house and she just hang out in the house doing nothing.. how would u feel..?? i bet the ego will say something like this "so what.. i'm the man of the house.. my wife/partner should listen to me.." heh.. try to be in her shoes.. if i'm the woman, i would just leave him.. let him find some woman that can realise his dream life..
another thing that a bit funny in the film was the typical life of a woman.. i laughed so hard about it.. in my heart actually.. my wife would kill me if she saw me laughing.. woman in trouble.. they will always try to find someone to talk to.. err.. actually, not talking.. just someone to listen to their problems.. if they had problems, they would call someone and told everything about their problem and hoping for a solution.. lol.. and usually they would listen to the other party eventhough they have brain to think, they have mind to decide.. and men in problems.. they would just find something to do to enjoy theirselves.. to forget the troubles.. they would go to some bars for a drink and such.. not that men always trying to run from the problem.. as for me.. it's a good way to clear your mind for the next step.. instead of telling someone else about your problem and being surprised that another person knew about it also on the next day.. who can shut a human mouth..?? what i can see and understand about a woman is that they just cant keep something to themselves.. they just need to tell someone especially their best friends about it.. what can your best friends do about it..?? listen..?? or u just need someone to feel sorry for u..?? u just need someone to know that the man has done something bad to u..?? have u womens called up your friends each time your man buy something for u..?? done something good for u..?? sacrifices their life to be with u..?? did u told your good friends about it..?? and u demand some appreciation..?? lol..
i remember that i grew up in an era where most of the songs i heard in radio was about relationship.. the women either solo or groups sings a song about being cheated, mistreated, anything bad that had been done by their men.. and the men would sing a song about how much they cherish their relationship, saying their sorry n such.. how sad is that..?? but when i heard about the song 'F**k It' by Eamon i was a bit surprised.. hmm.. that's new.. but still, the women hates to lose.. the sing the same song but a change of lyrics.. i cant remember who sang it..
*sigh* what a lovely world that i'm living.. the men will always be bad.. and the women will always be the one who suffers.. for me and my wife, i tried so hard to make sure i did not do anything bad to her.. i try to restrain myself from hurting her.. i know she's trying too.. i hope anything i wrote above wouldnt affects anyone.. it was just my tormented thoughts..

back to kl..

got home from malacca around 2100.. eventho we arrived at pudu station around 1900.. we went straight home but the traveling to our home-sweet-home was a bit.. *sigh* a lot of things happens while waiting for a ride to our home from the lrt station..
abah was very energetic when we're at his house.. he was busy gaardening at the back of the house when i was trying to surprise him as we reached the house.. kecheq didn't let them know first that we're coming back.. and it was nearly a tragedy trying to surprising an aging man with rake on his hand.. he nearly swing the rake to me but luckily his consciences get to him before his move.. lol..
mak was very talkative as ever to us especially her beloved daughter.. they were talking and talking in the kitchen, the room, the living room, and almost everywhere.. heh.. my wife bought them dinner of nasi goreng ayam and nasi goreng daging merah and surprisingly abah ate the whole pack of nasi goreng ayam.. as usual, mak ate only half of it.. we tried to persuaded her but still, we can't do anything about it..
in the morning, we helped them doing the house chores.. kecheq was helping mak and i was a bit blurred figuring out what to help them.. lastly, i just helped abah burning the dried leaves and grasses.. an arsonist in the making.. yeah..!! we plucked some rambutans at the back of the house and it was a lot of them the last time we went back to malacca but it was a few left.. abah said that kak ngah and company were back on last weekend and the boys has taken most of the rambutans.. heh..
and as usual, mak was crying by the time we're about to leave the house.. a very sad scene but we have to go back to kl to continue our daily life..
met one of the ex-student of the university we worked for and he was one of my tennis player.. he said that currently he worked in the semigovernment sector in malacca..
we ordered some Domino's pizzas as soon as we reached home as we're too tired to eat outside or even cooked.. the delivery was late and we got a free pizza coupon for it.. heh.. we love u Domino's..!!
we slept from 2300 and i was in shock when i found out it's already 1500 when i woke up.. currently oyen was screaming his lungs out at the door and i dont know why.. he's doing his routing of flying kick the door while screaming.. wish i could get a video of him doing the flying kick and upload it here..
got to be ready for work tomorrow and hmm.. *sigh*

busy day..

got a busy day today..
first, got to take my wife to Pusrawi again.. she got an appointment with the doctor after the last appointment that was supposed to be on last saturday was cancelled.. the reason was a bit funny cause the hospital staff demanded a Guarentee Letter from our company before she can see the doctor.. and we didnt knew anything about it, and me and my wife have to rescheduled the appointment today.. well, the appointment went well.. the doctor says that err.. something me n my wife should keep it to ourself..
after the appointment, we went to National Library for a breakfast, or should i say 'brunch'.. the cafe there provides lots of variation of foods, but the cafe owner (maybe) seems a bit rude.. when we asked for a spoon, she told us that they didnt wash the last batch of dishes yet.. if we wanna wait, it would take time and arrogantly she told us to use the plastic spoon.. the type of spoon that would break easily into two.. while we're eating, we were lucky that one of the staff took out the metal spoon and quickly i grab two of them for me and my wife.. i think i wont go to the cafe anymore..
after the brunch, we went to Plaza Rakyat to buy tickets for us to go back to my wife's hometown in Malacca.. we bought ourself the 1530 tickets.. maybe we will be back to home tomorrow evening.. poor oyen.. another night without us..
we went back home after that and straight to the restaurant within the apartment compund.. we had a simple lunch and there was a cute cat (i think he was oyen's sibling due to the way it interacts with humans).. a bit skinny though compared to oyen.. that cat was called 'tompok' by the woman from the laundry shop next to the restaurant..
hmm.. currently, my wife's packing our things for the trip to malacca.. i was a bit tired due to work days after a long holidays.. well, hope everythings fine in malacca.. hopefully abah and mak will be happy that we're coming back..

warded.. again..??

seems to me it is a week of hospitalisation to anyone near me.. first, it was my wife, who was warded due to food poisoning.. after that, my father-in-law.. he has hypo on glucose..
and now, on last saturday, a friend of mine, azmin, involved in an car accident and as u know it, warded @ ampang puteri.. he broke his collarbone and the doctor may have to implant some iron to attach his bone back..
yesterday, on monday morning, another friend of mine, suhaili aka matsu was admitted due to suspected dengue fever.. he was warded @ pusrawi, jalan tun razak.. the same hospital that my wife have been warded..
lol.. dont know why.. i felt like to story wouldnt end soon.. a few months before, there was an incident like this.. close relatives of my office has passed away and it was 5 cases in 10 days time.. it was pretty shocking but who am i to stop it all..??
all i can do now is hoping and praying that i will be healthy and if Allah destined me to die in any time, i hope my last word will be Allah's name.. Amin..

Ego..

hmm.. twolips ask me about ego.. what good things about being egoistic..
as i said before.. if u knew me in real life, u wouldnt believe or maybe u wouldnt try to consume everything that's coming out from my thoughts.. i'm just too young to write anything about life.. but with the pain and suffering and memories that i earned during these years, i think i know how to handle life.. my life..
lol.. that sentence sounds a bit egoistic to me.. part of me says that i shouldnt wrote something like that, but most of me says that i need everybody to know me.. not to understand me.. i never asked to be understand.. just want everybody know how i feel, what am i thinking, and that's it..
good things about being ego..?? this i quote from someone i knew.. "your ego makes you 'expensive'.." that person looked at my ego in a positive way.. and that was a long time ago.. i try to understand it, and after some times thinking bout it, i agreed to that person.. it makes people try to know you better.. why..?? try to learn about me through all my post in the past or future..
i know most of u guys know someone who u cant accept his/her ego.. and twolips.. how about i answer your question with another question.. sorry.. i know it's kind of rude..

WHAT IS BAD THINGS ABOUT BEING EGO..??

does it makes people hate u..?? for me, it's not.. actually, it's all started when people labeled 'ego' as a bad thing.. actually, i just searched thru wikipedia, ego is more towards self-interest.. as a common person, we loves to nod when someone we respected for example our parents say something that makes u think.. what if, someone younger than u says something that makes u think.. u would probably said "what did u know..?? you're younger than me.." in another word, experiences..
define experience please.. what makes u say that some older than u have more experiences than u and how can u say that u have more experiences than someone younger than u..?? if the elder person just spending his/her life in their house lying on their bed and then quote something that u have never think of, would u say that he/she is experienced based on their age..?? heh.. i just know someone will be pissed after reading this post and i would like to apologize in advance.. it's not related to someone dead or alive.. i'm not trying to create a controversy..
back to ego.. say, if u look at it on a positive side, it does makes u 'expensive'.. u got to know yourself better.. u dont have to care about others (being a candle that burns yourself to die and let other people happy).. u starts to respect yourself more than u respect others.. did i starts to think i'm better than anyone else..?? nope.. i learned from others by using my ego.. how..?? i try not to ask for opinion from anyone.. i try to observe others by their body language.. i try to observe my surroundings before i make my move.. sorry kecheq for the next sentences.. most of the people that know me in real life ask me, why did i choose my wife..?? instead of someone bla bla bla.. hmm.. i know my reasons.. and i'm happy that i made that decision.. even twolips.. remember the time u, kecheq n me went to gazebo subang during the time i was just knew kecheq n her families..?? u try to say good things about her n her brother (your husband).. and remember what i said to u..?? "sorry Long.. not that i dont want to hear it.. it's just that i want to know her myself.. why should i hear from other people instead of asking herself to know her..??" that's an ego statement.. does the ego statement makes me a bad person..??
*sigh* people.. please.. change your mindset.. instead of trying to bend other people's ego, try to bend yourself to fit their egoistic minds.. u could not change other people.. u have only one choice.. change yourself to make sure u'll be accepted in their life..
do not try to bend the spoon.. just realised the truth.. that it is not the spoon that bends.. it is only yourself..
and then what happens..?? the spoon bends according to his mind.. from what movie..?? the top of my favourite movie.. it teaches me a lot about life.. about choices.. about logics.. i will try to explain about it later on..
and sorry again if my post disturbs anyone.. sorry if my post change your perception towards me.. it's just my tormented thoughts..

respect.. part 2..

i'm gonna start this post by trying to define how i saw man and woman..
man.. his most precious value in his life is 'ego'.. there's no man in this world that i've ever encountered has never stood up for his ego.. even me.. i used to love my ego.. on my golden ages.. heh.. for those u knows me in real life would probably says that i'm still young and 'fresh'.. yeah.. i'm below 30 years of age.. but i dont know how, but my 'tormented thoughts' somehow teaches me to grew up a bit faster than anyone for the same age as mine.. i dont know what u thinks.. hmm.. ego lies in every man.. if there's too much of 'em and it will makes u hated by others especially woman, and lack of 'em makes u being called 'sissy' by another man.. hmm.. maybe.. right now, i'm still traiing myself to control my ego as i knew that it wont make things better, but it would turn back and hit me back somehow..
woman.. her most precious value is 'pride'.. err.. that's what i saw in most of the woman i knew.. they would just hate it when some man said to them that they have an ego, but still deep down in these womans, i know they are proud of it.. but, i'm gonna label it as 'pride'.. these pride thingy that makes some women very precious, and some of them makes them being unwanted..
in most of the times in my life, i've been thru a lot of things involving friends, families, lovers (sorry kecheq), enemies (sorry 'friend') etc wether a man or a woman.. i saw they would love being respected by others especially by someone younger, someone on lower rank, or anyone.. by how do they gain their respect..?? well, from my observations, some of them tries to gain some respect by using a physical method, and some of them uses verbal methods.. and me, i just love logical methods.. heh.. tell me, is there any boarding school that never had a case of ragging and bullying..?? or in a work environment.. is there any offices that never had a situation where the boss wouldn't be bossing around telling others to do their work..?? what do they gain from these situation..?? of course.. respect.. why..?? ego and pride..
why logical, u might ask.. i uses logics to differentiate all the situation that requires me to act.. in example.. while having a lunch or dinner, u logically have to excuse yourself if u have to get up wether to wash your hands, to get some tissues from the counter, to pay for the bills etc.. u dont just get up and go to wash your hands.. it would be nice if u just say a simple thingy like "i'm going to wash my hand.." just a little notification.. u won't get to be labeled as rude.. it would be the lowest act of respect towards other people.. and guess what people would think of u after those notification..?? 90% of the people would think that u're a nice person.. and what would do to u..?? your percentage of respect will increase a bit.. and vice versa.. u know what i mean..
i dont know why.. it's 0400 here.. and i'm a bit moody right now.. maybe coz i can't sleep.. it's been a tough week for me.. i've been going in and out of clinics and hospital more than 80% of the days in the last 7 days.. i didn't go to work for 5 days.. not that i missed my office, but i just feeling guilty for my responsibility to the one that pays my meals everyday.. but still.. my responsibility to my family are always my priorities..
back to the topic.. have u ever thought by the end of the day that what u did today creates a sweet memories to the one that u encounters..?? or did u leaved a bad memories to them..?? and how about those people..?? how did your memories about them..?? or should i say perception..?? is it the same as u did yesterday..?? or should i give u a simple example.. after reading this, how would u feel about me..?? a bad grammar..?? someone who tried to be an angel..?? someone that knocks the closed doors of your inner thoughts..?? and how should i feel while i'm writing these.. would it effects someone..?? maybe.. would i like what he/she thoughts about me after reading these..?? up to u.. (that's ego).. but i just hope that no one would be hurt by anything that i wrote in here.. i'm just trying to opened up your minds against the typical mindset of a... hmm.. u fill it yourself.. want me to give u a choice..?? local Malaysian maybe..?? local husbands/wives..?? kid who are still trying to know the world..??
hmm.. respect.. actually, there are a lot to be talk about.. some of the people close to me says that i wrote a hell of long topics.. negatively thinking : they are actually saying that i wrote something that i somehow mumbling or grumbling or gibberish.. positively thinking : u wrote a lot.. err.. that's it i think..
i used to be a negative thinker as a local typical people in this country.. and someone taught me to look at the good side of any situations even tragedies.. and i quote 'everything happens for a reason'.. thanks a lot for that person changed my mindset.. but still.. all these writing are my tormented thoughts..

hmm.. this week's chapter hasn't ended yet.. somehow, there's an episode each day..
my father-in-law was hospitalised today.. he was low on sugar.. it was not the first time he was admitted..
me n my wife got a call from my wife's sister telling us about her dad.. my wife called her mom at Melaka and she asked us to come back to their hometown in Melaka.. it was hard for us as we didnt have any transport and all the tragedies that happened to us during this week.. all we can promise to her is that we can only be back by saturday..
and suddenly, my wife's sis-in-law called and invited us to go to the hospital with them.. and we hurried packing and meet them at the guard house..
as we arrived there, there was all the closest relative who was with Abah from the morning.. and when we saw abah, he was a little energetic but he still need to be monitored..
pray for us.. again.. thank you..

fever

yesterday, i got a fever.. dont know why but it all started the night before.. my body ached and i cant sleep at all.. and by the time i woke up on yesterday morning, my temperature was high (as my wife told me)..
went to the nearest clinic for a medical checkup, and the doctor gave me two days of mc including today.. i spent the whole day sleeping since 1600 to 0800 today..
up til now, my body still aching especially my back.. my wife kinda force me to eat to make sure i can consume the midicines that the doctor gave me yesterday.. still, i lost my appetite and i dont know what i want to eat.. maybe we'll go to the mamak stall after this for a roti canai.. *sigh*
an another bad news for me.. my laptop was broken by the time i open the lid.. there's the connector between the lid and the body that's kind of tight lately and today, the connector was broken into two.. lucky for me that there was two of them.. and currently, the lid was held only by one of them.. *sigh* and still my laptop can be turn on and i still can do my work here..

warded part 4..

finally, wy wife is out from the hospital.. and the one that most happy about it is surely oyen.. heh.. by the time i opened the door of our house, oyen reached for my wife.. he asked for a big family hug.. and surely, we gave him one..
we reached our house around 2030.. actually, the doctor discharged my wife around 1130.. but the process of billing, as we're using the insurance card (provided by the company we worked for), it takes about 8 hours to process.. the nurse told us that we should declared that we want to use the card by the time my wife was hospitalised..
the night my wife fell sick (friday night), we chosed Pusrawi because they were one of the panel hospital of our office.. and it was the nearest to our office.. i think i still didnt explain that me n my wife work under one roof.. n when i registered her @ pusrawi, i told the attendent that we'll be charged under MARA.. and the nurse ask me to forward a letter to my HR officer declaring that my wife work for MARA.. it's call the guarantee letter.. (i think)
suddenly this morning, the HR officer told me that if a case of hospitalization, we have to use the insurance card provided by our company using a third party insurance company.. i was thinking that's it a kind of dissapointment as she told me a few hours before my wife was discharged.. one of my friend that has been hospitalised around february this year already told me that the process of verification takes about 2-3 hours.. i know it would be a problem if we use the insurance card.. so, my nightmare came true.. the nurse warned me about the process would take a few hours.. and she was right.. but it was more than 8 hours..
actually, if our company declared about the use of the card, and the differences between using insurance card and panel clinics or hospitals, it would be this way.. by the time i registered my wife, i would use that card.. i tried to use the card before when i went to HUKM due to my fractured wrist on August last year, but the hospital rejects the card.. they said that it cant be use for cases under RM50.. huh..?? now i know why.. it takes hours to process.. that's why they didn't accept it even though the hospital cost me n wife more than RM100.. but they were smart to make the charges in split bills and each bills costs less than RM50..
but then, what the hell.. my wife is safe n occay now.. she's taking a rest inside our room.. and oyen's happy about it.. that's all that matters.. thanks to all that prays for her..

warded part 3..

yeah.. it's already the third day my wife being warded @ pusrawi.. the doctor said that they have to monitor her for diarrea.. i don't know.. she looks fine to me.. but then, the doctor knows better than i do.. he should as he was paid to do that..
my wife said that she missed the kids so much especially oyen.. oyen is our orange cat.. he's kinda neurotic, naughty, hyperactive, sweet, myob cat type.. but still, he's the heart of this family.. hmm.. oyen missed his mama too of course.. he kept crying for his mama everytime i went back alone.. he was like asking "mama mane..??" (where's mama..??) everytime i open the door of our house.. and he keep asking for his mama when i went to the bathroom for a shower.. it's a kind of his ritual to keep my company while i take a shower after i went back from anywhere.. and by the time i finished my shower, he would just run to the living room to make sure my wife is there.. but currently as my wife is in the hospital, he was like a little lost.. he kept crying n crying for my wife to come out and make sure she is here for him.. actually, oyen got a little problem or should i say a phobia of being left alone in the house.. as me and my wife's working and went out from the house from 0730 til sometimes at night around 2100, he got a little bit worried if me n my wife have to go out of the house wether after work or weekends.. he even try to persuade us not to go to work in the morning of working days by lying in front of the door.. everytime he heard the sound of the house keys, he ran to the door and starts doing his magic.. it's a kind of sad to leave him, but it's our duty and we just have to do it.. but still, we did our best not to leave the house on weekends, but only for lunch or dinner..
as i'm writing this, oyen is sleeping in front of me.. he had just searched inside every room in the house for my wife..
i wish i cloud bring oyen to see his mama at the hospital, as my wife also told me that she missed oyen so much, but of course the guards wouldn't let oyen in.. i dont think there's a hospital that lets any pets inside their premises.. even hotels.. i've search for a hotel in this country that allows pets, but there's none.. i hope that i can change that..
err.. my eyes kind of sleepy as i'm writing this post, i think i better stop now.. to my family n my wife's pet sis and husband, and also cayak, thanx a lot for coming.. cayak stayed with me from 1300 to 2100.. and he sends me back home.. thank you..

warded part 2..

my wife's still warded @ pusrawi.. the doctor said that it was food poisoning.. and her body trying to reject the things she ate and currently producing some kind of acidic thingy to get rid of the bad things inside her stomach.. well, i'm not the medical type and surely i dont understand all those scientific words..
i just got back from pusrawi.. and her condition is occay right now.. still looking tired.. after all those battling inside her stomach.. she has stop vomitting but still the diarrea hasnt stop..
i forgot to write that last nite fizy and jann took her to the hospital.. and a few hours later, her relatives come to visit her.. kak ngah n company (just came back from dinner @ planet hollywood) and Long Ida who came all the from Subang Permai.. Long stayed till 2330.. she helped her to the toilet (obviously i cant get in the women's toilet).. thanx a lot Long..
today, my family came for a visit.. some time in the evening, my wife's student came and a few minutes later her pet sister since high school came..
hmm.. thanx to all that helped me and shows concern for me and my wife.. for those who YIMed me last nite, sorry that i cant replied as i was asleep rite after i weite the last post.. thank you again..
oh yeah, she has to stay for another night.. hope that it'll be the last nite there..

warded and friends..

just came back from pusrawi hospital at jalan tun razak, kl.. my wife has been warded due to food poisoning.. she has been vomiting since 1700 til 2100.. i was so worried that i want to stay with her but the nurses there says that i have to leave.. and they told me that at 2330.. i got no option other than calling up a few of my friends to pick me up.. at first i was thinking of staying at the students hostel in kg baru with my friend hilmi.. he's a fellow there but he says that his sister's staying over for the night as they're going to their hometown early in the morning.. but still, he came to pusrawi and stay with me while i'm waiting for another friend of mine to come and pick me up.. azmin who was just finished his Al Quran recital at his parents house says that he can pick me up and drop me off on his way home to sri kembangan..
thank you guys.. i owed you.. and to my wife.. rest well.. get well soon as these kids miss u so much especiall oyen..

TMNet Streamyx..

hmm.. my sis-in-law just called me up saying that her registration with TMNet Streamyx (Malaysian top ISP) had to be hold due to insufficient port on their hub.. heh.. on wednesday she told me that the tmnet technician already came to the house to set up the streamyx line for her parents house.. and the technician said that the hub's having a problem so that he cant continue that day..
i suggested to her that se call their hotline and ask for the truth.. and 10 minutes later she called me back and the tmnet customer service adviced her to wait for 7 days..
well, actually, it happened to me once.. during my registration period around august 05 (during my 13 days MC due to fractured wrist).. i called their hotline to check wether there are free ports on their hub for to register, and the first CS (customer service) told me that the port are full.. i was thinking to myself "what am i gonna do within 13 days of mc..?? unsatisfied with his answer, i called up their hotline on the next day.. i was in shocked when the second CS told he that i can register with them and there are free ports.. hmm.. i went straight to the TMPoint (TMNet shop) and try to register for streamyx (with my wrist in cast).. and lucky me the process went well except for my signature.. how can i sigh the form..?? heh.. nevermind that as long as i got my streamyx.. i subscribe to the 'Streamyx-In-A-box' as i knew how to configure those thing myself (and dont have to pay them RM50).. and it was my lucky day as my account got activated on the night itself..
but, christmas comes once in a year.. two weeks later, my connection starts to fail.. i cant connect to the internet.. i called their help line to settle the problem and they said that they will check the hub for me.. 3 days passed and nothing happened.. i called them up again and still they said that they will attend my problem within 24 hours.. and yet, nothing happen.. after 6 or 7 phone calls and still nothing happens, i nearly gave up.. and some from streamyx called.. and he said that he's a Level 2 CS.. and he suggested that i close this case as he would settle the case himself.. and i said occay..
but still, after a week without any changes to my internet connection, i called them again.. this, i tried to be strict and put some anger in my voice.. and voila, the technician came to my house the next day to check my phone line.. i have to take a leave as they cant come during weekends.. dont know why.. he checked and gave a promise that my connection will be occay around 48 hours..
and i wait..
hmm.. as u guys already guess, still no changes.. lol.. i called those cs again.. and the technician came.. again.. and i have to take a leave.. again..
only after that, after nearly 3 weeks struggling for a connection, more than 10 phone calls, i got my connection back..
i was thinking to myself, should i pay my internet connection for only a week usage, or should i use the money to pay my phone bill as i have to call them over and over again.. and i decided to just pay for both.. it's no good to quarrel with them again as i can see where it will be going.. heh..
the morale of the story, hmm.. u decide.. i just cant understand that how can tmnet put up a booth to push everyone to sign up for their services.. they spend a lot of money to gain new customer and ignored the existing customer needs..
then again, who am i to say anything to them.. it was just my tormented thoughts..

project projector..

hmm.. i'm still on my latest project of connecting my home pc to the projector.. and the current problem is the current gap between my pc and the projector was around 4-5 metres.. and the projector is in the bedroom so i cant move the pc as the pc was located at the corner of the room..
i'm currently using Asus A9250 powered by ATI Radeon with 256Mb DDR graphic card on computer.. it has one RGB, one S-Video output and one DVI output..
i went to low yatt plaza (some kind of IT heaven in KL) and try to find a 5 metres RGB cable.. and i was suprised by the price for that simple thingy.. it was RM450 for a 5 metres cable, and RM350 for a 3 metres cable.. it was bloodsucking price (maybe that price was fair as i've never check the market before) and i decided to come up with another plan..
i searched lelong.com.my for a RGB to RCA converter (the yellow thingy for video connection).. there was two seller selling that item there.. the price was RM30 and RM90.. i was thinking and trying to figure out what's the differences between those two.. and finally, i called up the RM30 seller and ask him the reason for price differences (i wouldnt call the RM90 guy as i'm sure he would told me the RM30 was 'cap ayam' brand).. the RM30 guy calmly said that it was the same.. only the quality difference which is no matter to me as i think it doesnt matter so much.. i had order one unit from him and it arrived yesterday.. and my next mission is to find 5 metres RCA cable..
i always thought that it was easy to find it as i've a lot of these cable in my office (but it was 1 metre type).. and i was wrong.. the longest i can find was 3 metres.. and i decided to buy a connector and connect the 3 metres cable that i just bought few hours ago (RM8) with a 1 metre cable that was lying unused in my office..
after all the hassle of finding this and that, i checked the video card at the office (the same model that i use), and i realised "why didn't i just use the cable that was included in the graphic card box that convert the S-Video to RCA..??" hmm.. i could have saved RM30 (plus RM5 for shipping).. and i got a 2 metres long S-Video cable in my office and i just can connect it to the RCA cable that i've just bought..

hhmmmm.. my wife's gonna kill me..

respect..

hmm.. i know that most of u guys have heard of a game titled 'Grand Theft Auto'.. and most of u guys also labeled the game as the most violence and the game itself created an issue after a patch that have been released that allows the player to have a bonus sex trailer..
i've only played the older version of the game during PSOne.. the violent was there.. but something i learn from the as it was the theme of the game itself.. 'Respect is everything'..
yerp.. there's a good thing about this game after all.. i learned that respect IS everything.. in the i'm living rite now it's kinda hard to people that implementing that simple feature of respect.. yet, they tried so hard to gain other people respect without the self-awareness of gaining the respect from the people around them and yet they still didn't respect other people to achieve that.. what i can see in those people are just selfishness.. they didn't try to understand what other people feeling, and they didn't care anything at all as long as their goal can be achieve..
the most common situation that are so obvious about the 'people's selfishness' was during queuing.. as i travel using public transportation to get to my destinations, this problem occurs in every places i go.. it hard to find a place that has a respect value within these people.. usually, they didn't even try to respect other people by queuing to get on the public transportation either buses or trains.. if i had the chance to be the first to reach the specific place to wait for the bus or train, i would try to create a queue line as i stand behind my wife as there was a line for those people to queue.. even if there are one or two people that has started a queue line to get onto the bus or train, me and my wife would try join the queues.. but still, when the bus or train arrive, so suddenly, out of nowhere, these selfish people would come out and fight for a front place to get themselves the first to get on the public transport..
sometimes i wonder.. how would they feel if they were the one who's queing and somebody else cuts their queues.. would they be mad..?? would they ask the people to queue..??
surely i know that these kind of people really dont think of what other people would feel.. these selfishness are so bad and happening almost everwhere.. and i dont know how to mend this problem.. and actually the answer is of course 'respect'..
there's a tv commercial on Malaysian local tv that shows a group of children being advice by their parents not to jump queue after seeing their children pushing each other to get on their SUV.. the script was like this.. "dont jump queue.. line up and wait for your turns.." the father said.. on their way, there's a massive traffic jam in front of them.. what the father did was he turn to the emergency lane to jump the queue himself.. and he's smiling to his wife and the wife smiles back at him.. suddenly, all of their children shoout out the line "dont jump queue.. line up and wait for your turn.." altogether..
yeah.. for most of the people, it would be a funny and ordinary tv commercial.. for me, it was actually a struck of truth for some selfish people.. and yet, it still happens in most of the highways and almost everywhere when there's a traffic jam.. and it is not just about on the road..
hmm.. since i was 18, i trained myself to think of how would it feel to wear other people shoes.. in every situation, almost every time that i encounter people, i would try to understand their side of feelings.. and i trained myself to respect other people in effort to win other people respect.. i kept my voice down while talking, i try be as polite as possible towards other people especially by implementing the word 'thank you' and 'sorry' in my life, and other things as well.. but my weakness is i cant look at other people's eyes while communicating with them.. i got my own reason actually.. and i know most of u thinks as it was one sign of weakness.. actually some people didn't feel comfortable looking straight to other people eyes.. i'm in that group actually.. and of course i know it was kinda rude to do that, and usually i would say sorry before i begins the conversation.. i tried to learn from other people body language wether or not they're comfortable or not while talking to me..
and for me, respect is everything.. by respecting others, you're helping yourself for selfawareness and of course, selfrespect..
i think this post is kind of dragging for too long.. in my next post i'll write about the usage and how meaningful the word 'thank you' and 'sorry' can be.. and maybe there will be part 2..
hmm.. as i said before.. it's my two cents.. my tormented thoughts..

tormented..?? part 2..

hmm.. first thing that my wife ask me when she knows that i've created a blog is "why tormented..??" and my answer was "i just love the word"..
i first knew the word 'tormented' was thru a song 'Odd From A Psycopath' from a local Malaysian band call 'Broodwyn' (cant remember it too well)..
actually, from my opinion, anything that's still breathing are a tormented creature.. nobody's having a perfect life.. as anyone has said in most of the time, 'you're not perfect, every human are not perfect, only God is perfect'.. Subhanallah.. yes, i'm a Muslim.. hmm.. what i meant here is that everybody are being tormented by something that they cant run away from.. problems, thoughts, etc..
for me, i'm actually tormented by my own thoughts most of the times.. "why did i do that..??", "what should i do next..??", "why am i being the one who have to do all the things..??" and all other thought.. as i said before on the last post, dont think too much as it would damage yourself more than the problem itself.. actually, it happens to me most of the times.. i think too much.. that makes me a quiet person.. and i love being one.. heh.. i just cant stop thinking of the consequenses for my next move.. i just cant stop thinking about other people feelings if i do something.. but still, i'm too lazy to make a move.. heh.. and i'm not a decision maker.. i'd just hate it if sumone ask me for an opinion.. i hate to take the blame if that person involve in a wrong situation..
here's a little advice for all of u.. if u want to ask for someone's opinion, prepare for the consequenses on your own.. dont go blaming the person who help u to make the decision.. and try to accept that person's opinion as u ask for it in the first place.. u ask for an opinion, not a suggestion.. there's a lot of difference between those two.. opinion - something to help you or to something to support your decision.. and most of the time, it comes from a person straight from the heart.. suggestion - choices for you to take and you can either accept it or not.. it would make no harm if you decided not to accept the suggestion.. but still, it hurts if u take the opinion negatively.. prepare yourself for someone's opinion before asking for it.. and it as i said before, tormented by other people thought..
hmm.. and i would like to write this little announcement.. everything i wrote here are not meant for anyone.. i'm not trying to be synical, i'm not trying to express my dissatisfaction towards anyone.. it just a little two cents from me.. my tormented thoughts..

tormented..??

hmm.. i'm trying to blog as i saw that a it's kinda a struck of blog fever everywhere i go.. everybody's having their own blog to supress their feeling towards the evolving world around them.. no, i'm not the kind of guy who would just follow others to cope with the trends.. i just felt like writing as i'm always keep everything away from other people and actually it's kinda hard to do for a certain times.. well, for you all to know, i'm a very absent minded person.. i would just forgets anything that bother me.. any problem, any issue and almost everything.. 'sleeping is the best solution for your problems'.. no, i'm not quoting that from any movies, any influential people.. that's one of my mottos.. i got a lot of them n i will write it in this blog as u journey a little deeper in my life..

why tormented..?? well, i'm not tormented by anybody right now.. there's no one to blame.. i love my current life right now.. i love my wife, my cat, my family, my religion, my country and my world.. it's just that sometime, somewhere an itsy bitsy thingy would struck my life n ruin the whole day.. as i said before, sleeping is the best solution.. when u woke up after a good nite sleep, i'm sure u'll feel like a new guy / gal.. and a new day awaits u.. leave the past behind as it wont affect u anymore.. u cant change 'em.. u can't do anything for the past.. u can only plan for the future.. 'what's done is done'.. maybe some of u would say that u cant dump your problem just like that.. it will come after u sooner or later.. well, that's true.. but then, why do u have to mess your life up for a little problem..?? just take a little your time to relax and use that time to think of a solution.. a best solution for u and others that involved in these problem.. i know that it's kinda 'too good to be true', but actually, the more u think of how the problem would messed u up,the more messier things happen during those thinking time.. just go on with your life..

hmm.. i'm not trying to give solutions to anyone here.. n i'm not saying that i'm free from any problem.. i'm an ordinary guy who inhale the next breath and exhale the last breath..

well, that's all for now.. i'll try to post as many as i could.. there are a lot of things in my mind now to post about, but time still waits for me.. i hope..