Tormented Soul

july 2009 updates..

2009-07-17T12:43:00.002+08:00

hmm.. it's been a while..

there's a lots of events struck me n my surrounding these past months..

anyway, to kecheq, thank you so much for having 'that person'.. i love u so much, and i can't tell u how grateful i am right now.. how i wish i could take all your pain away from u, how i wish that i'm the one in pain instead of u.. but all i can do is listen.. and care.. and good luck with your new place..

there are some new resolutions that i need to achieve as soon as possible.. wish me luck..

to my toys, do serve your new owner as good as u have served me.. it's been thrilling, and i'm sorry for not spending enough time with some of u.. and sorry that i have to let u guys go and had replace u..

to D, i know it's has been more than 10 years, but it has to stop now.. u have been a good friend to me, u have accompanied me through my ups and downs, you are the first one i look for when i'm depressed.. but, i have to take care of someone new.. thank you so much for what u have done for me..

referring to my previous posts, hmm.. i'm a bit sad as i can't change the world..
well, who am i to change the world..??
i've done my part.. i've tried my best.. but still, a stone will still be a stone.. no matter how beautiful a sculpture has been carved from a stone, people will always say that "it's still a stone".. u can change the outer layer, but u can't change the foundation..

something to note about.. and all i can say is, i have my own stand.. but it really hurts to see the outcome.. now, i could see the actual faces that has been hiding for all these years.. before this, my ears have tried to persuade me to believe, but my heart said give them some chances.. but then, bits by bits, my heart started to believe.. and now, my brain understands.. and my thought is saying, good luck to u.. 0

hope u know who u have hurt..
hope u realize who are u kissing right now..
hope u like the taste of the saliva that u once spit out..
hope u are happy with your current and future lifestyle..
hope u know the one u kiss is kissing someone u despise behind u..
hope u know when u stab the knife, there's already a knife at your back..

remember the time when u're getting pulled into the quicksand, whose hand did u hold on to..?
remember the time when u need somebody to listen to you, whose ears did u talk to..?
remember the time, when u're in need, whose legs are running to help u..?
remember the time when u're depressed, whose heart told u not to worry..?

but whatever it is.. the world nowadays has make people to live in survival mode..
peoples are often to forgets..
peoples are so hard to appreciate..
peoples are easy to hate..

if u wanna know the answer, try to think about,
whose number u has just removed from your 'speed dial list' on your phone..?
whose name that u has just (maybe nearly) removed from your contact list..?

it is that easy to remove someone from your life.. right..? the fact is, as i said before this, it is easy to forgets all the good deeds someone has done for u, but it is hard to forgets a simple bad deed that someone has just done to u..

i do realize that i have hurt some people.. i do realize that i have fuck up a lot.. i do realize some people cried to their sleep because of me.. all i can do is apologizes.. but, as i said,
good deeds are like stick-on-notes, they tend to stick for a while,
bad deeds are like engraving, it's nearly impossible to remove it..

looks like i am meant to be tormented.. hopefully, it can all be better soon.. i hope..

my iPhone 3G experience.. legally in Malaysia..

2009-04-03T09:53:00.005+08:00

it's been 2 weeks since my wife, Kecheq, bought me an iPhone 3G.. legally.. it was part of our deal for birthday gift(s) for each other.. she bought me an iPhone 3G, and i bought her a brand new Nikon D60 plus my ol' 32Gb iPod Touch.. heh.. we enrolled with the Maxis iPhone package called iValue as currently, Maxis is the only LEGAL sole distributor for iPhone 3G in Malaysia..

anyway, just to share some experience with u guys about iPhone 3G in Malaysia..

as soon as i got my iPhone, i was thinking of what to do with the new postpaid line that we have to register in order to get the iPhone.. we enrolled to the iValue1 which is Kecheq have to pay RM2290 for the phone, and me paying RM200 deposit and the monthly commitment charges of RM100 for one year.. i'm too lazy to notify everyone in my contact list that i've a new mobile number, and i hate to let go of my current mobile number.. all i can think of is, i can just kept the new Maxis number unused.. i can stay with my current number so that people dont have to update my number in their phonebook.. 1 problem half solved..

secondly, as soon as i swap the SIM card (from Maxis to Celcom), i thought there will be no problem.. as i tried to migrate all my contacts from my Dopod D810 phonebook, i've messed up.. i was informed that i can transfer all my contacts using Ms Outlook.. so, first thing i have to do is to sync my contacts from my D810.. i configured my D810 and my laptop at home, and as soon as the sync progressed, i noticed something.. ActiveSync didnt show the number of contacts that are being sync to my Outlook.. as it finished, there's nothing on my Outlook.. s**t.. something's wrong.. when i checked my D810, all the contacts are gone..
trying to keep myself calm, i look for the backup files on my storage card.. the last backup was September 2008 (as i'm too lazy to backup my phone).. hmm.. better than nothing, so, i restored the September backup and all i have in my phonebook is the number prior to that time.. i've lost all the latest entry up to March 2009.. *sigh*..
what happened was i forgot to change the option on my D810's ActiveSync.. the option of 'if there is a conflict: replace the item on my device'.. *sigh*.. i changed it to 'keep the item on my device' and sync it again.. and there's no problem afterwards.. and i set all the numbers with international code for Malaysia (+6) so that it would be organized..

as i've been using iPod Touch before and the GUI is just the same, there's no problem to personalise my iPhone.. and so i thought.. heh.. i noticed something wrong.. when someone called me on my phone, their names didn't show up.. it only showed their number as if they are not in my phonebook.. at first, i thought maybe because i have lost a few of my contacts due to my migrating mistake.. but when a person texted me, their name showed up.. hmm.. as i tested Kecheq's phone to call my phone, her name didn't show up.. occay.. something is wrong.. i searched on Google, there's a few people who had the same problem, but it's not in Malaysia.. they had some problem with localization.. so, i tried to configure my iPhone to Malaysia, but there's no option for Malaysia.. hmm.. and if i remove the +6 on my contacts, their name showed up when they call me, but if they text me, only their number showed up.. maybe because Malaysia has just participate in iPhone world tour, so, Malaysia hasn't been added to their database..
and the only possible solution i can think of is to jailbreak my iPhone.. actually, i dont want to jailbreak my iPhone.. but, i can think of nothing else for this problem.. so, i ended up jailbreaking my iPhone that night.. and using Cydia, i installed the patch for this problem.. i cant remember the name of that patch, but it helps.. my problem is solved.. i think maybe after the iPhone OS 3.0 update, i wont have to jailbreak my iPhone as the problem would be solve..

and as i had to jailbreak, i have done a few customization.. here's the screenshot of my iPhone 3G interface..

eventhough i've jailbreak my iPhone, believe me that i havent installed any pirated/cracked application on my iPhone.. every apps was downloaded from Apps Store wether it's a free or paid version..

why pay for apps as i've jailbroken my iPhone..?? u might be asking that question..
one thing i noticed.. if u bought any apps in Apps Store, your purchase will be recorded in iTunes database.. so, if anything happens to your phone or in case u change to another iPhone, u can re-download the apps u've already purchase for free.. u dont have to pay for the same app..
and if u installed a pirated/cracked apps, in my experience *cough* (on my Ipod Touch), u wont get any updates for that apps.. so, there's a lot of advantages of buying legitimate apps for your iPhone.. and another thing.. actually, i didnt try it yet, in my case of having iPod Touch and iPhone, if u bought the apps from Apps Store using one account, u can installed it on both device.. cool.. i dont know wether someday Apple would change this rule, but i hope they wont.. heh..

and about my 'have to register' Maxis postpaid number, i thought of a use for it.. the Maxis plan comes with 500mb of data usage as i have to pay RM100 every month for 1 year.. so, using my D810, i installed a software call WMWIFIRouter to turn my D810 into a wifi router on the go.. cool eh..?? what it did is my D810 has been configured using that software so it would connect to Maxis 3G coverage.. so, my D810 has become a portable WIFI router for me.. i can surf the internet, and such everywhere, anywhere (as long as there's Maxis 3G coverage) without using my Celcom postpaid.. so, i will be using the RM100 that i have to pay, and still save on my Celcom number.. but a few features on the iPhone requires me to connect directly using my Celcom 3G, such as Maps, as the GPS chip on the iPhone is AGPS which requires 3G connection to pinpoint my location.. *sigh*

OS 3.0 update.. hmm.. can't wait for it.. the only feature i really want so bad is the A2DP.. time to go for wireless entertainment again..
MMS..?? not for me.. hate MMS..
more push email.. i really hope Apple would change that.. currently, there's only two push email.. MobileMe and Exchange.. and u can only create one (yeah, one) Exchange account on iPhone.. please change that..

i think that's all for now.. update on my life..?? maybe next post.. in 3 or 4 months time.. hehehe..

iphone 3g in malaysia..

2009-03-12T08:11:00.004+08:00

finally, iphone 3g arrived in malaysia legally.. thanx to maxis..

to mede.. still wanna buy my dopod..?? hehe..

4th anniversary..

2008-12-23T08:06:00.002+08:00

err.. i didn't had the chance to blog lately, as i was a bit busy (and lazy)..
but just wanna let you guys know, that it was me n Kecheq 4th anniversary last Friday (December 19th).. and thank you keng for the early wish.. heh..
actually, i got a game of futsal that Thursday night, and it was supposed to start at 2300.. so, the game would finish at 0000 (December 19th).. i was thinking on how to celebrate the anniversary with my wife, and i came up with an idea of surprising her..
on Thursday, i asked a favor from a friend who lived near the futsal centre (Sports Planet Ampang), to buy a cake from Secret Recipe.. i told him to bring the cake to the game that night, and i'll try my best to persuade Kecheq to come along to the game that night.. Kecheq usually don't want to follow as she will be bored during my futsal match.. and there's a lot of interesting tv series on Astro on Thursday nights..
i tried my best not to blow the surprise for Kecheq as me and my friend are talking in codes about the plan.. but, i think she had some clues on what will happen that night.. heh..
somehow, she agreed to accompany me to the game.. i acted normal and so did my friends.. i've already told everyone who came that night about the plan of surprising my wife, and luckily, everyone was sporting.. thanks guys..
exactly at 0000, me and Jamal went to retrieve the cake that has been kept inside his car.. by the time i approached Kecheq, she said "I've knew it..!!" hehe.. she told me that she sensed something.. she thought it was a bit weird as me and friends are talking in codes, how i insisted her to come along and such.. heh..
and after the game, i forced everyone to have some bite of the cake.. all the adrenaline after the game, plus a bit of cheese cake, i knew it would be a disaster.. heh.. luckily no one vomited..

on the anniversary day, me n Kecheq went to Midvalley Megamall for a brunch at Madam Kwan.. the food there was occay (for me), but i think the price was insane.. a plate of 'sambal udang petai' was RM20+..!! Kecheq told me that the portion would be big, but as it arrived, damn it was a disappointment.. and i was mumbling as we ate.. heh.. and i told myself, if the bill is more the RM100, i'll never eat there again.. not that i'm broke or something, but i hate the overcharging.. i'm occay if that portion of sambal udang petai was charged at RM10+, as there's only 6 pieces of small shrimps and the rest was petai.. luckily, the bill was only at RM70++.. hmm.. not bad.. and truthfully, i'm still unsatisfied.. heh..

anyway, just wanna wish my wife, Kecheq, Happy 4th Anniversary.. and Happy 4th Birthday to Oyen.. and thank you Along Amin for giving me a Timex Heart Rate Monitor watch.. i'm sure i'll fully utilize it.. it's work out time.. got to have six packs before err.. someday.. hehehe..

tormented.. part 4..

2008-12-04T11:18:00.002+08:00

hmm..
those phrase has really left me some deep impact.. back in the old days, the 'selfish' me doesn't really care for my surrounding. but all is just about me and myself.. i don't appreciate a lot of things and yet, when they've gone, only then i know how much they're meant to me..

some people nowadays, and i don't know why, are too selfish to think about others.. as long as they can get what they need, they don't want to think about how their action can affect other people/things..

for instance, the current issue of using 'fatwa' to ban something.. in my country, they have succeeded to ban Yoga.. the reason for the ban..?? they said that yoga uses some kind of chant to praise Hindu's so called Lords and such.. i don't use the term God as there no other God but Allah.. i'm really surprised bout the decision, as i know somehow those melody that has been used in yoga are not all about appraising their Lords.. the main purpose for the melody are for meditation and somehow relaxing.. but then, all i can say is, they should have known better.. even in Islams' teaching, there's one saying.. and somehow, i can't find the right words in English, but it goes something like this..

Janganlah kamu menghalalkan sesuatu yang haram, dan janganlah kamu mengharamkan sesuatu yang halal..

hope someone can translate it to English.. anyway, somehow as they manage to ban yoga, currently they're trying to ban smoking ciggies n such using the power of fatwa.. hmm.. as i have wrote in my previous post in this blog, somehow, i think they are not thinking too deep about this issue.. don't they know currently smokers are one of the main contributors for the national taxes..?? we (smokers) pay our taxes everyday by buying a pack of ciggies..

and as i wrote before.. what happens if everyone in this country suddenly stop buying any cigarettes..?? Malaysia could lost millions of ringgit.. and what can the ministers do to avoid this..?? i bet they would increase the price of everything to compensate all the lost.. and i bet at that time, everyone would felt differently for the ex-smokers..

hmm.. that's the current issue.. in everyday life, i still trained myself not to neglect anyone or anything as i know somehow, someday, they can disappeared from my life in an instance.. my family (my wife, oyen n taupe, my parents and everyone that i can call 'family'), my friends, my assets, my career and such.. actually, i have lost something that are very precious to me for the second time in my life.. my biological father..

my parent was divorced when i was two and a half years old.. i grew up without a father's love.. my father do came and visit me and my siblings every months for a mere 2-3 hours.. but after i finished my studies, i tried to become close to him as i try to get a job quite near to him.. that's one of the reason my workplaces are mostly located in the middle of KL.. i tried to free up some time to have lunch with my father, hang out at his office during my free time.. but it all changes when he got an offer to work in Nigeria.. i was quite shocked about his decision, but i still have to respect it.. i tried so hard to help him to get through all the necessity and preparation for him for his departure.. at that time also, me and my girlfriend (currently my wife) are planning to get married.. we were actually planned to have the wedding on June 2005, but after we knew that my father will be leaving around end of December 2004, i decided to have the wedding on the middle on December 2004.. but still, after all my effort to make sure he will be there on my wedding day, i found out that he have to leave early.. he departed to Nigeria on November.. i was so frustrated....

and while he was in Nigeria, i tried to keep in touch with him.. and some time, when he got the chance to return to Malaysia, i tried to spend some time with him.. but, i don't know why, or when, suddenly i got the news from someone else that my father already quits his job at Nigeria.. and he has return to Malaysia.. without notifying any of my family.. i was so frustrated, so sad, so...... *sigh* i really don't know what went wrong.. sometimes i even cried when i think about it.. not even my wife knew about this.. some people told me to just go to his house and pay him a visit.. but, for me, after all my effort, and suddenly he dumped me just like that, i think better if i let him be.. he got his own family.. and it's already been 2 years since the news of him coming back to Malaysia, and still, i have not received any phone calls, any emails from him.. no news at all.. nothing.. so, i lost him for the second time....

n i missed him so much.. and it hurts so bad.. it's not that he's dead that i can't see him anymore.. he is there, but i just can't meet him.. i knew he is there.. but....

how i envy those people that have their father to love them while they grew older.. and how i envy those people who have lost their father as they know they won't be hurt anymore of the fact of losing their father.. maybe some of u might say, it's worst if your father have died especially when u're young.. in my case, it's just like u see something that u love or want so much just within reach, but no matter how hard u tried, u know that u can never grab it.. and it hurts with every attempt to reach it..

and everytime people asked me, "how is your father..??" i would just burst into tears.. but i have to control myself.. even my mother has found someone else, my step father, to me, he is there just for my mother.. just to make sure my mother is happy, secured, and will not be sad ever again.. and i'll sure of that..

so, what i'm try to write here is that if u do appreciate something in your life, do try your best to hold on to it.. it could be anything.. living thing, or even non living things.. u just don't know when those thing would disappear from u.. that's why i tried so hard to make sure my wife is happy with me, my friends are all knew that i would be there for them, my family could depends on me when they're in need.. it's occay if i'm all tormented inside, as long as i could see smiles on everyone's faces..

me..?? still wearing all my laughter, smiles, and joyous mask everyday.. deep inside me..?? no one knew.. some lines from Kid Rock 'Only God Knows Why'..

People don't know bout the things I say and do
They don't understand about the shit that I've been through

i've even tried to be in solitude.. just to make sure i won't be so depressed when i have to lose anything.. i tried to get away from my friends as i have lost lots of best friends due to misunderstanding and such and sometime i even think that i have a jinx that i can't have any best friends.. i tried not to take care of any more cats as pets as i can't bear the sadness to let them go when they are on their last breath.. and to my wife, Kecheq, that's why my usual answer when u ask for my opinions, all i said was "up to u, Kecheq".. i would hate it if i would made the wrong action or decision that can lead to me ended up losing u..

thank you for your time to read this.. it's been a while since my last long posts.. i'm sorry if u have headaches reading this.. but i think i have to let it out.. it has been too tormenting for me to keep it inside of me..

oh yeah.. if anyone wants to comment, do leave something good instead of something that can hurt anyone else.. if u don't have anything good to say, keep it to yourself.. there's no use to provoke other people as i know u won't like it if someone else provokes u..

Don't open your mouth if u can't say anything nice to other peoples' ears..
-akeys-

Turn Left, Turn Right..

2008-11-27T17:14:00.002+08:00

hmm.. it's a movie title from Hong Kong in the year 2003.. it was aired on the local tube around that year, and dunno how (or why), i watched it.. but i think i didn't watched it from the start.. so, i downloaded the movie as i thought it was kind of a good movie..
but, dunno how (and why), suddenly i watched it today.. after about 5 years it's been in my pc.. heh..
anyway, just thought of sharing some part of the lines from that movie..

If two people meet and
they both fall in love,

that's destiny for sure.

If neither loves the other,

even if they meet millions of times,
it's still not destiny!

If one's in love and the other isn't,

and the one who's in love grabs
on and won't let go

while the other just wants to run away,

not only is it not destiny...
it's pain..

hmm.. nothing to comment, just think for a while.. and let your thought torments u..

tormenting stares..

2008-11-03T08:52:00.002+08:00

hmm.. dunno why, almost every time me n wife were hanging out, people would stare at us.. not that we were making this up, it was so true.. even while we're walking along the sidewalk, people from opposite direction would stare at me or my wife.. at first, i was thinking that maybe they were just astonish that i am tall.. heh.. but, dunno why, the one who stares are mostly from opposite sexes.. maybe, they were thinking that we're celebrity lookalike.. hehehe.. no, I'm not making these up.. there were couple of time people ask me, aren't u an actor..?? heh..
there was some time that while me, my wife and my brother was having a tea at some mamak restaurant, the waiter suddenly making a statement that i look like some Tamil actor.. WHAT..?? *damn*.. and there was a time while me n wife was hanging out at Bukit Bintang, i accidentally cut my finger at the 7-Eleven in below the monorail station, and i asked for a medical plaster from the attendant.. he stared at me for a while, and only then he gave me what i want.. outside of the 7-Eleven, while i tried to put on the plaster, my wife told me that i should clean the cut first before putting the plaster on.. and she went back inside the 7-Eleven to buy a mineral water.. when she got back to me, she was laughing.. she said that the attendant ask her "Abang tu artis yea..?? (that man is an artist, right..??)" and we burst into laughter.. maybe i should went back in and gave that boy an autograph..
so, what i did is, i try to avoid making eye contacts.. but sometimes, i would just stare back at them.. well, i talk to Kecheq about this issue.. i thought i was the only one.. and she said that it happens to her also.. heh.. and i asked her, what is the best thing to do (if someone stared at u).. she said that, if i try to avoid the eye contact, it shows that i like what those people are doing to me.. staring that is.. something like 'menggedik'.. heh.. so, what she told me to do is to stare back at them and (by using my eyes) ask them "WHAT DO U WANT..??" heh.. to me, it's kinda hard to do, as one of my weakness is making eye contact.. it's so hard for me to make eye contact even while i'm having a conversation with someone.. if i manage to make one, it's a big accomplishment for me.. heh..
me n Kecheq finally came up with something.. if someone stares at either one of us, we should notify the each other to show what kind of fan we have with a safe word.. heh.. and the word is 'Pineapple'.. lol.. got that word from a tv series 'Chuck' as a safe word for emergency.. and we started to use that plan.. while we're hanging out at Midvalley yesterday, a few Pineapple occasion occurs.. heh.. it was funny actually to implement that word to our conversation at first.. but, it went good.. we manage to take a look at our each other fans.. just for having a laugh..
owh.. if u guys still didn't know, Malaysians has been labeled as the people who like to stares.. the label has been given by the tourist who feel awkward with some Malaysians.. so Malaysians, stop staring please..

just sharing..

2008-10-17T10:16:00.002+08:00

i really love this pic.. heh.. got this pic from tolan..

ipod or iphone

2008-09-28T11:42:00.002+08:00

hmm.. currently i'm still calculating whether to get myself an iPod Touch or iPhone 3G.. *sigh* price factor is one of the criteria.. someone offered (Sept 08) iPod Touch 8Gb @ RM800+, 16Gb @ RM1100+ and 32Gb @ RM1500+.. that's really cheap compared to the one the authorized resellers currently selling (RM1399, RM1799, RM1999).. and the iPhone 3G currently selling @ RM2700+ (8Gb) and RM3100+ (16Gb).. that's the AP version as iPhone didnt manage to spread their wings in Malaysia..
rumors says that MAYBE Maxis or Digi is thinking of bringing iPhone legally to Malaysia.. but as i said rumors, i still cant see Malaysian flag at the Apple iPhone's site for the 'coming soon' section.. heh..
this means if i get myself an iPhone, i cant do anything for a warranty.. but the iPod Touch is legally selling here in Malaysia, so there's no problems.. i could afford the Apple Care plan for the iPod Touch which is currently @ Rm219 (think so) for 2 years warranty..
for the feature comparison, iPod Touch has all the music and movie features.. including wireless LAN.. but a setback for me is it didnt have Bluetooth..!! damn.. no A2DP for me.. *sigh* and for iPhone, it has all the features the iPod has to offer, plus phone features, GPS and Bluetooth..!! hmm..
to make it worse, my current phone (Dopod D810) which i bought last year (Aug 07) @ RM2799, is currently tagged @ RM 700 - RM900 for second hand value.. *sigh again* as i said before, i should have not trust HTC.. no updates (Windows Mobile 6.1) for my model, the customer service sucks (ignore my inquiries @ Low Yatt Plaza), low second hand value..
i think that if i get myself an iPhone right now @ RM3k+, and then suddenly Maxis or Digi announce that they are bringing iPhone to Malaysia for less than RM1.5k, it would just kill me.. hmm.. i can stand their contract plan for two years as i have been using Maxis for more than 5 years (postpaid)..
another funny thing is that one of the local newspaper ask Maxis top guns whether they are bringing iPhone to Malaysia back in July 08, and the Maxis man said that they arent thinking of it, as (according to him) Apple didnt have plan to bring the phone to Asia.. lol.. ARE U STUPID..?? even Singapore have gotten the right to sell iPhone.. or maybe he thinks Singapore is not part of Asia..
if i can be a consultant to Maxis, i have lots of ideas for them to make lots of money.. i have thought of how Maxis can make an easy money from Malaysians.. but dunno why, their marketing team could not think at all.. all they have thought is sending spam to their customers, selling ringtones by SMS, sponsors major events but didnt make any profit out of the event (which they can make millions from it).. *sigh* even the iPhone can help Ananda Krishnan bought another cruise boat.. heh.. hey Maxis (or any other service providers)..!! do you guys want my ideas..?? but u guys need to pay me lor.. hehe..
maybe i can just wait for a while and buy myself iPod Touch for the mean time.. hmm..
my thoughts is tormenting me..

cycling trips..

2008-07-04T11:30:00.003+08:00

hmm.. pics from my second cycling trips..
venue : Wetland, Putrajaya..
type of ride : just cruising and stamina building..
wanna join us..?? hehe.. let's ride..
next trip, me n friends planning for a trip to FRIM.. but due to lack on informations about the trails, we're still doing our homework about the trails.. if u guys have any info about it, feel free to contact me.. leave a comment.. preferably, GPS maps..
thanks..

another hobby..

2008-05-02T10:57:00.003+08:00

sorry as it has been a while since i last update this blog.. dont wanna use any crappy excuses this time such as too lazy n such..
anyway, i've been riding since last month.. riding..?? heh.. after a good amount of poison from my bro-in-law (Along Amin), i bought myself a new Mountain Bike.. Merida Sub 40 D -Lady (huh..??).. a lady bike..?? well, the guy at the bicycle shop says that currently there's no limitation to lady or mens bike.. err, i believe him.. as i saw the pix of American women riders were as big as men.. will post some pix of my bike later..
i've been riding 2-3 times a week (uhuk) at night around 2200 at the apartment compound.. i manage to get 1.2km per round using a new route (previously 0.9km) and i manage to cycle minimum 5 km a session..
oh ya.. met someone who is a semi-pro rider who's living in the same apartment (but different block) and he promise me to train me about everything.. i think he's also excited to found out that someone can ride with him as he says currently he's riding alone from the apartment to an impossible destination for me such as Desa Waterpark, Astro, and even Genting Sempah.. that's more than 100km per ride..!! well, hope i can train with him as my true intention is to improve my stamina and not for racing purpose..
got to go.. need to print some pix of Elly's wedding before Friday prayers..
wish me luck on my new hobby.. heh..

my coming birthday..

2008-01-18T21:14:00.000+08:00

hmm.. my birthday is coming in 4 weeks.. plus minus.. well, here's my wish list for 2008..

Nikon telephoto zoom - Nikkor AF-S VR Zoom 70-300mm f/4.5-5.6 IF-ED.. (the VR version please)
Nikon MB-D80 Battery Pack for Nikon D80 DSLR
Nikon SB-800 i-TTL Flash
Nikon Zoom Super Wide Angle AF-S - Nikkor 14-24mm f/2.8G ED Autofocus Lens
50" Plasma TV Full HD (not HD Ready)

hmm.. to make everything easy, u can just drop me a bag of money.. heh.. maybe around USD500k would do.. then, i'll do the shopping myself..

anyway, there's not much interesting events for me lately..

first, my cousin engagement.. hmm.. at first, i was intended to do some trial photo shoots to learn new skills for that kind of events.. as i'm still learning to shoot.. still have lots to learn.. i just did some point and shoot, trying out some of the advices that i learned from the internet, and try to capture the best moments from the event.. at the end of the day, i print out the pics and hand it over to my uncle.. my uncle n wife loves the pics that me n wife took.. hmm..
all of a sudden, everybody is taking my new hobby seriously and ask me n wife to cover for the wedding on April 2008.. and now, I'm in some kind of dilemma whether to take the job given to me or not.. some of the tormenting thoughts is about the skills.. do i have the correct skills to cover a wedding ceremony..?? what happens if i mess up..?? i would not ask them to reorganize the event all over again.. and then, the price factor.. do i have to charge my uncle..?? if i do, how much..?? *sigh*.. it cost me around RM8k to buy all the gears i have now.. and it does not includes the cost for printing n such.. how am i going to propose the price to my uncle politely..?? hmm.. i guess that's why people says that never involve family in your business.. or something like that..

2nd.. me furthering study.. i haven't registered myself for this new semester yet.. too busy with the job.. yeah right.. i'm kind of waiting for last semester results.. and i was just browsing the web portal for OUM, and suddenly, the results are already out.. i was a bit surprise seeing that i got B's for most subjects.. i thought i would failed the semester as i was just remembering without understanding the facts.. and all the 'tembak menembak' in the exam.. dont know whether i should rush to OUM or not to register myself for the January semester.. hmm..

3rd.. went to Sungai Chongkak last week.. did some shooting.. hmm.. not much to say, just visit my flickr page for the results.. can't upload much as my internet connection sucks this week..

4th.. my internet connection sucks.. heh.. been thinking of changing to other ISP (internet service provider), but my tormenting thoughts told me that it won't do much..!! tmnet is currently monopolizing the isp as all the other isp in malaysia is using tmnet line as their backbone.. i found out about this from someone in tmnet.. hmm.. all i can do is just crossing my fingers and praying to Allah that everything would go fine.. Insya Allah..
the problem was all the same from the previous situation.. my connection was crawling slow, and sometime it would just went dead.. i have called tmnet helpline to report about my problem, and still hoping for something good to happen..

hmm.. dont have much to write.. as everything are just the same.. my tormenting thoughts are prohibited by my laziness to write.. heh..

and dont forget all those things on my list.. hehe..

Awal Muharram..

2008-01-09T21:04:00.000+08:00

hmm.. it's the new year again.. for Muslims around the world..
just wanna wish everyone, Happy New Year 2008 and 1429 H..
hope this year would bring more prosperity, healthy, peaceful life and all the positive value to everyone..
actually, the new year for Muslims starts @ the dusk.. so, it means, it's already 1429 H now in Malaysia.. i cant remember the actual doa' for the new year, but i still praying for a good new year for everybody..
Amin..

eye on malaysia

2007-12-28T08:46:00.001+08:00

i've updated my flickr page with some photo of the 'Eye on Malaysia' that i tool on the last Christmas night.. it was raining that evening.. i was a bit disappointed at first as i've been planning to shoot the 'Eye on Malaysia' with the new camera (Nikon D80).. but who can blame the weather..??
the rains stops around 1930.. so, me, my wife and my brother went to Titiwangsa.. there's a lot of people at Titiwangsa maybe due to the holiday season for Malaysian.. and also tourists..
me and my wife sets up our tripods (kecheq has inherited my D40x) and try to take the best shot as we could..
so, here's a few of the results..
u guys can view other pix at my flickr.. just follow the link from my sidebar..
oh yeah, i remembers that someone wins something from a photography competition taking a picture of the 'Eye on Malaysia' from the angle same as mine..
and i heard some rumors that the 'Eye on Malaysia' would be dismantle on the early 2008.. this is due to the one year only contract.. don't know whether it's true or not.. hopefully it's just another rumors.. it's a waste to see an RM30m construction for just a year lifespan.. hmm..

futsal inter staff

2007-12-17T10:13:00.000+08:00

last Saturday UniKL City Campus has organized a futsal tournament between the staff of city campus.. i was selected as one of the committee to organize the event.. well, based on the past experience, heh, i has promised myself not to participate in the committee whole heartedly.. as that's what they have done to me on the last event.. i was all alone doing the promoting, handling the registration, collecting the entry fees n such.. they were just carrying the name as the committee and doing nothing..
on the latest event, they tried to organized it properly.. saggregating the task to every committee.. and based on their respect to me (n my experience for the previous tournament), they have picked me to be one of the committee.. heh.. but then, on the first meeting, something ticked me off.. n i quote, "Based on the previous futsal tournament that WE organized......." WTF..?? we..?? who's we..?? who are the we that u're referring to..?? hmm..
anyway, the tournament went on smoothly.. err.. not really actually.. there's a bit of aggressiveness, changing words, intentional tackle and kicks, off the ball tackles.. and did i mention that this is a inter staff tournament..?? a tournament that u're playing with your offices' colleague..?? and i was forced to be the referee for some games.. heh.. what a mistake for me.. i have to yell to some of them, and luckily i dont have to produced a single card to banished them from the game.. and i heard one of them yelling "CHANGE THE REF..!!" due to dissatisfactions to the decision i made.. hehe..
and guess who won the tournament..?? hehehe..

akeys flicker..

2007-11-13T15:49:00.000+08:00

i've added some new pix on my flicker..
please view and comment..
just click on the flicker flash ad on the sidebar..
thanx..

november 2007 update..

2007-11-10T01:45:00.000+08:00

my life have been very hectic lately.. i guess that's my reason for not blogging in a while..
u guys already knew that currently i'm pursuing my degree in OUM.. part time as in twice a month on weekends.. for all i know, the total hours for each class is only 10 hours.. and there's assignment for each classes.. waaa..!! well, i've submitted 2 of 'em (on the very last minutes), and the next one is due tomorrow.. and i haven't started anything yet.. *sigh* i'm still trying to find some ideas on what to write in the assignment.. heh.. dont know what to 'goreng' at all..
my raya..?? hmm.. i would just like to say, a very eventful one.. lots of drama, lots of tear, lots of anger.. as always, i can only manage to stay calm and smile.. nothing i can do to change anything, so i better kept quiet.. all i can say is, keeping quite doesnt mean that i dont have anything to say.. i just dont want to hurt anyone as i dont want to be hurt.. hmm..
next topic, another toy has been added to my inventory.. heh.. psp 2000.. some of u might call it psp slim and lite.. if anyone ever ask me was it worth it to buy a psp, i would really say yes.. the reasons..?? first of all, it has the gaming function.. *duh* the other functions, really satisfied my need.. it can play mp3 (songs), mp4 (video), and even the picture viewer function.. the memory capacity is quite occay as currently i'm using the 4Gb memory stick.. still searching for the 8Gb MS in malaysia.. saw it on some overseas website, but the price they're offering, i can buy another psp unit.. heh.. the conclusion, it's a portable all in one media player.. and it have a good battery life..
my photography life, hmm, quite improving.. i think.. heh.. went to cameron highland last week.. and a some of my friends who saw the pix i took was quite impressed with my work.. if i got some time, and mood, i'll upload it on my flicker.. u guys can access my flicker at the sidebar by clicking the flash pix of oyen.. currently i'm thinking (still considering) of buying a new DSLR as i planned to give the current DSLR to my wife.. as she keep showing her interest on digital photography.. the first camera i gave her was not that impressive to be use to shoot a good pix.. a simple point and shoot type of camera.. i know that she was not too happy with that camera, but she kept it to herself.. i'll try everything to make u happy, kecheq..
hmm.. my assignment is still waiting for the first word.. see u guys next time..

home entertainment..

2007-09-23T22:04:00.000+08:00

my current home entertainment..
Astro (satellite tv), htpc (windows media center 2005), 2.1 speakers, 32" samsung lcd tv, PStwo, an IKEA table lamp and a lava lamp.. heh..
it should do enough for me now.. thank you all..
pic taken using Nikon D40X.. the flare from the flash (SB-600) was visible at the top of lcd tv.. even i tried to bounce it off the ceiling.. what a mistake..

new toys..

2007-09-14T16:41:00.000+08:00

hmm.. got myself a few toys for me to play with.. well, those toys has been in my wishlist for a long time.. didnt have the urge to buy it before due to tight budget n such, but now, i'm proud to have 'em..
first, i bought a Nikon D40x DSLR.. not a new one actually.. a second hand from a friend that has just been using it for 3 months.. his reason of selling..?? he wants to upgrade to the Nikon D300.. a few of my friend says that i should have wait for the D300, but i dont know wether i can fork out Rm6k for it.. so, better i f i buy the RM2k+ for the D40X for my first DSLR.. the features is nearly the same as D80, and some says it's better that it's predecessors such as D50.. 10.2MP DSLR for is more than i need for now.. been capturing Oyen's pix for a while using my D40X, and i'm quite satisfied with it..
next was my new 6 channel heli.. heh.. couldnt get the 7 channel heli for below than RM500 in malaysia.. dont know wether u guys have found it somewhere, but 6 channel for rm300+, who can resist..?? heh.. the first hour was a wrecked.. lol.. been trying out the transmitter.. trying to get to know all the buttons' functions.. there's the one button that i shouldnt play with.. the button to change from the normal function to reverse function.. what a big mistake.. the heli suddenly flew at maximum speed and hit one of the pc in my office.. lol.. i was petrified of what to do as i've already turned off the transmitter but the heli just kept going.. the tail blade had flew the opposite direction as it hits a cpu.. and i found out that the tail blade has already broken as it cant rotate anymore.. *sigh* but with a few DIY, i manage to make it work but not as good a before..
the next day, i tried to fly it at the play ground at my house.. the tail blade just didnt work.. and it was a big mistake to flew it at all.. in the end it crashed to the playground.. the heli was flying smoothly, but it suddenly tilted and somehow it just went to the ground.. at high speed.. *sigh*.. the main blade were broken into two.. the plastic rotor head were broken into pieces.. hmm.. maybe a trip to a toy shop would cost me around RM200 to fix 'em..
*sigh*

august update

2007-08-26T11:26:00.000+08:00

heh.. again.. the laziness wins.. but i will try to put up some updates in my life..
hmm.. first of all, i've registered myself @ Open University Malaysia for the Bachelor Degree program.. at last.. after all the dark memories of studying in higher education institutes in this country.. but i still have some doubts about this, but hey, it cant haunt me forever.. i just need to change my life.. for starters, get a certification to recognise my talents.. i've taken the Bachelor in IT and Management with Honours there.. and i manage to persuade one of my collegue to join me.. i wont be bored and i hope i can make him as one of the reasons to go to class.. i just knew that if i were to attend the class all alone, i would just lose the interest in a short time.. anyway, wish me luck..
and i just got myself a new toy.. yeay.. a PDA Phone.. Dopod D810.. actually, i was still wondering why did i buy this phone.. and i still feeling a little sceptical about this phone.. heh.. base on my experience (and a few encounters with Dopod earlier model users), the results were not that exciting... heh.. and logically, why must we trust a brand that still dont have the urge to came up with their own design til now..?? lol.. they are still copying other brand design such as O2.. that's my first impression of Dopod.. it's been a week now with my new toy, and i've found a little bit of flaw in this phone.. but i still can manage to withstand the minor problems such as phone freezing, lost GSM.. i'm just hoping that there's no more surprises come out from D810.. oh ya.. in CNet Australia review, Dopod 838 Pro is one of the top 5 PDA Phone.. and the promoters in Low Yatt says that it is currently the best selling phone there.. hmm..
one of my nephew, Billy, has also furthers his study in Bachelor Degree.. but he's doing it in Wisconsin, US.. oh, now i remembers.. the 'That 70's Show' is base there.. heh.. wishing u all the best.. hoping that we can both achieve our goals on the next 4 to 5 years..
owh.. my wife also has registered herself to further her studies.. she's taking her Masters in Education at the same place with me.. but she still haven't receieved her offer letter yet.. and a friend of mine (works at OUM as a Marketing Exec) said that she will get her offer letter in September.. i hope so.. all the best to u my wife..

hmm... that's all for now.. see u guys later..

tormented..?? part 3..

2007-06-18T12:12:00.000+08:00

i noticed that within these past few months i didn't post any of my tormenting thoughts.. heh.. maybe i was in a good mood.. or maybe i was too lazy to write while the thoughts were tormenting me.. lol..
and i noticed that lately i have been writing about tech more than the original concept of my tormented soul.. hmm..
if i want to organize my blog, i should have created another blog that i can write about tech instead of mixing it together in this blog..
but u know what..?? i'm too lazy.. lol..

may 07 update..

2007-05-10T00:28:00.000+08:00

what to update..

hmm.. i bought a playstation 2 last week.. at last.. the price was rm500 only (compared to last two years price about rm1k).. i know it's a bit late to buy a ps2, but then, the price is right and currently (as i was told by the seller) this version is more stable compared to the previous version.. he told me that the previous version cant be played more than 3 hours continously without proper cooling unit.. n i bought a light gun for my wife as she loves the shooting games.. but i was unlucky as the gun cant be use with lcd/plasma tv.. i have to find another gun that can shoot at my lcd tv.. currently, my wife has to shoot at the 14" crt tv in the bedroom.. imagine that.. shooting accuracy was poor due to the small screen.. heh.. i'll find u another gun to go with the lcd tv especially for u, kecheq..

since last two days, i've been undergoing a training course for mac osx helpdesk support essentials at damansara.. n tomorrow will be the last day as it is a 3 days course.. the instructor is doing a good job training for me.. n its quite nice to see a malay specialist (the instructur) spreading his knowledge to other people.. and he said that if i take the exam for this course (it will cost me usd100 = rm380) i'll be a certified mac osx helpdesk support person for apple.. n my name will be listed at their (apple.com) website.. hmm.. one of my next to do list.. i learn a lot from him as i still new to mac os n it was a good knowledge too..

next week, there'll be an MoU signing between macasia and the university i work for.. i was enlisted as one of the development committee for the ceremony.. wtf is that..?? i dunno what i have to do.. heh.. maybe i should just keep playing along with it..

the futsal tournament for the university staff that i organized last week was a success eventhough i'm the only one planning and doing all the work.. i was relieved to see it turns out occay and everybody congratulates me after the tournament.. and even one of them was joking that i should offer the champion of the tournament a cup named after me.. heh.. that was funny.. akeys cup.. lol..

owh.. man utd lost their chance to win the champions league.. i was frustrated and a bit angry at the defence line playing the 2nd leg game against ac milan.. but the epl is assured for man utd..

thats about it for now.. trying not to sleep after this.. i'm waiting for 0300 (malaysian time) for the match between man utd and chelsea.. i'll update later..

my lcd tv.. part 2..

2007-04-30T01:47:00.000+08:00

heh.. my lcd tv has arrived on thursday.. yeah..!! n quickly i connected it to my htpc to test the so called high definition pics n vids.. the delivery man was astonished as i'm connecting a pc to the lcd tv and using a remote to control the pc.. the results were a bit frustating though due to connection cable (using s-video to rca convertor) not sending digital signals and the vids were a bit noisy..
i didnt check out the audio from the tv as i paired it with my 2.1 speakers (it should have been 5.1) and i got myself a mini home theatre.. it'll work for now..
on friday when i woke up late (too lazy to go to work that day), my wife told me that oyen (our cat) was trying to stand on top of the lcd unit.. huh.. she ran quickly to save it (the tv, not the cat).. thank you kecheq..
we went to low yatt that evening to buy a dvi to hdmi cable as i was hoping the vids quality would be better.. i was expecting that the cable would cost me more than rm100.. i saw a unit of that cable monster** brand the carries the tag of rm300+ from one of the shop there.. *gulp* but lucky for me as i check out the other store (all it hypermarket) and found out that one of the x-students of the university i work for currently works there and i ask him wether they got the cable that i want.. n i got it for rm75 (the actual price was rm89 as he gave me a discount using his name).. yeay..
and the results was good.. i got higher definitions vids but i had one more problem.. the correct resolution.. i tried out all widescreen resolution that the tv can support but nothing satisfies me.. a quick search on the web still doesnt help much..
currently, i'm 80% satisfied with my new toy.. but, whatever it is, i still thank God for it..

my lcd tv..

2007-04-24T00:12:00.000+08:00

at last.. i bought myself an LCD TV.. yeay.. i went to buy the Samsung LA32S71BX (Sonoma) from one of the well known superstore in Malaysia after i could not hold myself anymore.. after doing my homeworks about all the details, rankings, FAQs etc, i decided to buy it today.. i was thinking of buying the Samsung LA32R71B (Bordeux) actually for its phisycal sleekness and advance features, but i just found out that samsung has seized to produce that model already.. *sigh* they have replace it with another Bordeux LA32R81B which comes with higher specs and features..
about my lcd specs..?? google it.. heh.. and make sure u search it at Samsung Malaysia's website as it is differs model name from other region.. AFAIK laa.. heh..
i spent last two weeks comparing and reading reviews on lcds on the net.. n i got tonnes of brochures that i collected from different electronic shops that i went to survey the current price.. actually, the review says that currently, Sony Bravia lcd is on the top ranking for lcd.. in terms of performance, quality n such.. but, as most of u already knows, in term of price, sony is also unbeatable.. heh.. sorry sony.. i love your products, but i hate your price..i used to be a sony fan with my discmans, mini disc players ( i got 3 of them n i dont know where they are now), headphones (even bought myself the earliest model of sony noise cancelling headphones that cost me rm499) n such.. but it was during the 90s.. heh.. but now, i have to choose samsung to fulfill my home theatre desire..
next thing on the list.. new home furnishing.. to bribe my wife as she gave me the opportunity to fill my lust for electronics.. we want to try the 'simplicity' concept.. hmmmmmm..
my lcd due to arrive at my home on this thursday 26th april.. hmm.. my cousin's birthday.. lol.. n i will get a new present for myself.. yeay..
3 days to go..

update..

2007-04-09T13:29:00.000+08:00

it's been a while since i last update this blog.. heh.. i have been really busy with real life and a bit lazy to update..
nothing much to tell.. i'm trying to be active again in sports as i have not been able to involve much in sports as i used to be.. the university i work for is trying to organize a soccer team for the city campus.. and maybe i got my name as the first goalkeeper for this team.. maybe.. heh.. it all depends on another game tomorrow night at some stadium in UPM.. i think.. *sigh*
and currently i'm trying to organize a futsal tournament within the city campus staffs.. it will be held on the first week of may.. looks like i'm the only one struggling to make sure the event goes on smoothly as i'm the only one running around the 31 floors of the university building inviting the staffs here to join the tournament.. *sigh*
about my htpc project.. still calculating of buying an LCD TV for myself.. heh.. the tight budget still tormenting me and forcing me to hold myself from buying one in the near future.. *sigh* i've bought a tv tuner tough (a cheap one.. pinnacle brand for RM139 instead of hauppauge mce tuner for RM499) and luckily MCE can display the broadcasted tv in malaysia.. after a few sweats of tweaking due to uncompatible tuner in MCE..
owh.. something funny happens last friday.. as i was preparing myself to go home after work, i was triggered to print out the Sudoku of the day from www.miniclip.com as i love to solve it during my time in the LRT.. as i hit the print button, my printers' paper feeder was rolling to print my sudoku and suddenly it was jammed.. i was surprised as i'm sure it has not giving my any problem since i got it.. while i was trying to pull the jammed paper out of the printer, something sticked at the paper.. to my surprise there was a dead lizard (cicak)..!! upper part of its body (the front leg and skin) were torn off due to the roller.. ugh.. i was thinking of taking a picture of the incident but then again, it's too gore.. heh.. and i still trying to print out the sudoku but the printer is still jammed.. i think to myself, maybe the front leg of the cicak is still stucked at the roller..
when i reached my office this morning, i tried to print out as i'm sure the leg has been harden already.. heh.. and i was right.. the printed paper is out with some piece of the cicaks' skin on it..
that's all for now.. wish me luck for tomorrow night.. hopefully i wont let any goals pass through me tomorrow.. *crossing fingers*